Ayubu 7
1 Je mtu hana kazi ngumu juu ya nchi? Je siku zake si kama siku za mwajiriwa?
“Isn't life for human beings like serving a sentence of hard labor? Don't their days pass like those of a hired laborer?
2 Kama mtumwa atamaniye sana kivuli cha jioni, kama mwajiriwa atafutaye ujira wake -
Like some slave longing for a bit of shade, like a hired hand anxiously waiting for pay day,
3 hivyo nami nimeumbwa kuvumilia miezi ya taabu; Nami nimepewa taabu - zimeujaza usiku.
I've been given months of emptiness and nights of misery.
4 Hapo nilalapo chini, najiuliza mwenyewe, 'Lini nitatoka kitandani na lini usiku utatoweka?' Nimejawa na kujitupa huku na huko hadi mwanzo wa siku.
When I go to bed I ask, ‘When shall I get up?’ But the night goes on and on, and I toss and turn until dawn.
5 Mwili wangu umevikwa minyoo na madonda yenye vumbi; maumivu katika ngozi yangu yamekuwa magumu na kisha hutoweka na huendelea tena.
My body is covered with maggots and caked in dirt; my skin is cracked, with oozing sores.
6 Siku zangu zinakimbia kuliko chombo cha kufumia; zinapita bila tumaini.
My days pass quicker than a weaver's shuttle and they come to an end without hope.
7 Mungu, anakumbuka kwamba maisha yangu ni pumzi tu; jicho langu halitaona mema tena.
Remember that my life is just a breath; I will not see happiness again.
8 Jicho lake Mungu, huyo anionaye mimi, halitaniangalia tena; Macho ya Mungu yatanitazama, lakini sitakuwako.
Those watching me won't see me anymore; your eyes will be looking for me, but I will be gone.
9 kama vile wingu liishavyo na kutoweka, hivyo wale waendao sheoli hawatarudi tena kabisa. (Sheol h7585)
When a cloud disappears, it's gone, just as anyone who goes down to Sheol does not come back up. (Sheol h7585)
10 Yeye hatarudi tena nyumbani kwake, wala mahali pake hapatamtambua tena.
They will never return home, and the people they knew will forget them.
11 Kwa sababu hiyo sitakizuia kinywa changu; Nitasema juu ya maumivu makubwa ya roho yangu; Nitanung'unika juu ya uchungu wa nafsi yangu.
So, no, I won't hold my tongue—I will speak in the agony of my spirit; I will complain in the bitterness of my soul.
12 Je mimi ni bahari au kiumbe cha kutisha baharini hata ukaweka mlinzi juu yangu?
Am I the sea or a sea monster that you have to guard me?
13 Hapo nisemapo, 'kitanda changu kitanifariji, na malazi yangu yatatuliza manung'uniko yangu,'
If I tell myself, ‘I'll feel better if I lie down in my bed,’ or ‘it will help me to lie down on my couch,’
14 halafu unitishapo kwa ndoto na kunitisha kwa maono,
then you scare me so much with dreams and terrify me with visions
15 ili nichague kunyongwa na kufa kuliko kulinda mifupa yangu hii.
that I would rather be strangled—I would rather die than become just a bag of bones.
16 Ninayachukia kabisa maisha yangu; sitamani siku zote kuwa hai; usinisumbue maana siku zangu hazifai.
I hate my life! I know I won't live long. Leave me alone because my life is just a breath.
17 Je mtu ni nini hata ukatia bidii kwake, na ukaweka akili yako kwake,
Why are human beings so important to you; why are you so concerned about them
18 na kumwangalia kila asubuhi, na kumjaribu kila mara?
that you inspect them every morning and test them every moment? Won't you ever stop staring at me?
19 Je itachukuwa muda gani kabla hujaacha kuniangalia, wala kunisumbua muda wa kutosha kwaajili ya kumeza mate yangu?
Won't you ever leave me alone long enough to catch my breath?
20 Hata kama nimefanya dhambi, itakusaidia nini, wewe ulindaye wanadamu? Kwa nini umenifanya shabaha yako, kiasi kwamba nimekuwa mzigo kwako?
What have I done wrong? What have I done to you, Watcher of Humanity? Why have you made me your target, so that I'm a burden even to myself?
21 Kwa nini hunisamehi makosa yangu na kuniondolea uovu wangu? kwa kuwa sasa nitalala mavumbini; na wewe utanitafuta kwa bidii, lakini sitakuwako.”
If so why don't you pardon my sins, and take away my guilt? Right now I'm going to lie down in the dust, and though you will look for me, I will be gone.”
