Ījaba 10
1 Mana dvēsele apnikusi dzīvot; savas vaimanas es neaizturēšu, es runāšu savas dvēseles rūgtumā.
“I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
2 Es sacīšu uz Dievu: nepazudini mani, dod man zināt, kāpēc Tu ar mani tiesājies.
I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
3 Vai Tev patīk varas darbu darīt, atmest Savas rokas darbu un bezdievīgo padomam dot spožumu;
Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
4 Vai Tev ir miesīgas acis, vai Tu redzi, kā cilvēks redz?
Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
5 Vai Tavas dienas ir kā cilvēka dienas un Tavi gadi kā kāda vīra dienas,
(Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
6 Ka Tu manu noziegumu meklē un vaicā pēc maniem grēkiem,
So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
7 Lai gan Tu zini, ka es bezdievīgs neesmu, un ka neviena nav, kas no Tavas rokas izglābj,
You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
8 Tavas rokas mani sataisījušas un darījušas, kāds es viscaur esmu, un tomēr Tu mani aprij.
“'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
9 Piemini jel, ka Tu mani kā mālu esi taisījis, vai Tu mani atkal darīsi par pīšļiem?
Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
10 Vai Tu mani neesi izlējis kā pienu, un man licis sarikt kā sieram?
You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
11 Ar ādu un miesu Tu mani esi apģērbis, ar kauliem un dzīslām mani salaidis!
You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
12 Dzīvību un žēlastību Tu man esi devis, un Tavas acis sargāja manu dvēseli.
You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
13 Un to Tu Savā sirdī esi slēpis, es zinu, ka tas Tev prātā stāvēja.
“'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
14 Kad es grēkoju, tad Tu to gribēji pieminēt un mani neatlaist no maniem noziegumiem.
You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
15 Ja es bezdievīgs biju, ak vai, man! Bet ja biju taisns, taču man nebija galvu pacelt, ar lielu kaunu ieraugot savas bēdas.
If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
16 Un ja es galvu paceļu, kā lauva Tu mani gribēji vajāt, un arvien atkal brīnišķi pret mani rādīties,
And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
17 Pret mani vest Savus lieciniekus citus par citiem un vairot Savu dusmību pret mani, celt pret mani vienu kara spēku pēc otra.
You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
18 Kāpēc tad Tu mani esi izvedis no mātes miesām? Kaut es būtu nomiris un neviena acs mani nebūtu redzējusi,
“'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
19 Tad es būtu kā kas mūžam nav bijis, no mātes miesām es būtu kapā guldīts.
[I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
20 Vai nav īss mans mūžs? Mities jel, atstājies no manis, ka es maķenīt atspirgstos,
[I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
21 Pirms es noeju, un vairs neatgriežos, uz tumsības un nāves ēnas zemi,
before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
22 Uz zemi, kur bieza tumsība kā pusnakts, kur nāves ēna un nekāda skaidrība, un kur gaisma ir kā tumsība.
a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
