Ayubu 7
1 “Je, mwanadamu hana kazi ngumu duniani? Siku zake si kama zile za mtu aliyeajiriwa?
“People need to work hard on this earth, like soldiers do; all during the time that we are alive, we work hard [RHQ], like laborers/servants do.
2 Kama mtumwa anavyovionea shauku vivuli vya jioni, au mtu aliyeajiriwa anavyoungojea mshahara wake,
We are like [SIM] slaves who keep wanting to be in the cool shade, and we are like [SIM] workers who are waiting to be paid.
3 ndivyo nilivyogawiwa miezi ya ubatili, nami nimeandikiwa huzuni usiku hata usiku.
God has given me many months [in which I think that it is] useless [to remain alive]; he has allotted/given to me many nights during which I feel miserable.
4 Wakati nilalapo ninawaza, ‘Itachukua muda gani kabla sijaamka?’ Usiku huwa mrefu, nami najigeuzageuza hadi mapambazuko.
When I lie down [at night] I say, ‘How long will it be until morning?’ But nights are long, and I (toss/turn over and over) [on my bed] until dawn.
5 Mwili wangu umevikwa mabuu na uchafu, ngozi yangu imetumbuka na kutunga usaha.
My body is covered with maggots and scabs; pus oozes out of my open sores.
6 “Siku zangu zinapita upesi kuliko mtande wa kufuma, nazo zinafikia mwisho wake bila matumaini.
My days pass as quickly as a weaver’s (shuttle/stick that takes the thread back and forth), and they end without my confidently expecting [that things will be better the next day].
7 Kumbuka, Ee Mungu, maisha yangu ni kama pumzi; macho yangu kamwe hayataona tena raha.
God, do not forget that my life is [as short as] a breath [MET]; I [think that] I [SYN] will never again be happy.
8 Lile jicho linaloniona sasa halitaniona tena; utanitafuta, wala sitakuwepo.
God, you [SYN] see me now, but [some day] you will not see me any more. You will search for me, but I will be gone [because I will be dead].
9 Kama vile wingu liondokavyo na kutoweka, vivyo hivyo yeye ashukaye kaburini harudi tena. (Sheol h7585)
Like [SIM] clouds (disperse/break up) and then disappear, people [die and] descend to the place where dead people are, and they do not return; (Sheol h7585)
10 Kamwe harudi tena nyumbani mwake; wala mahali pake hapatamjua tena.
they never return to their houses, and people among whom they lived do not remember them any more.
11 “Kwa hiyo sitanyamaza; nitanena kutokana na maumivu makuu ya roho yangu, nitalalama kwa uchungu wa nafsi yangu.
So, I will not be silent; while I am suffering I will speak; I will complain [to God about what has happened to me] because I [SYN] am very angry.
12 Je, mimi ni bahari, au mnyama mkubwa mno akaaye vilindini, hata uniweke chini ya ulinzi?
[God, ] why do you watch closely what I am doing? [Do you think that] I am a [dangerous] sea monster?
13 Ninapofikiri kwamba kitanda changu kitanifariji, nacho kiti changu cha fahari kitapunguza malalamiko yangu,
When [I lie down at night, ] I think, ‘I will be comforted here on my bed; my pain will be less while I am sleeping.’
14 ndipo wanitisha kwa ndoto na kunitia hofu kwa maono,
But then you give me dreams that cause me to be afraid; you give me visions that terrify me,
15 hivyo ninachagua kujinyonga na kufa, kuliko huu mwili wangu.
with the result that I would prefer to be strangled to death than to continue to [be alive] being only a bunch of bones.
16 Ninayachukia maisha yangu; nisingetamani kuendelea kuishi. Niache; siku zangu ni ubatili.
I detest continuing to be alive; I do not want to live for many years [HYP]. Allow me to be alone, [because I will be alive] for only a very short remaining time [HYP].
17 “Mwanadamu ni kitu gani hata umjali kiasi hiki, kwamba unamtia sana maanani,
“We human beings are not [very important]; so, why do you pay a lot of attention to us [DOU]?
18 kwamba unamwangalia kila asubuhi na kumjaribu kila wakati?
You look at us every morning [to see what we are doing], and examine us every moment [to see if we are doing what is right].
19 Je, hutaacha kamwe kunitazama, au kuniacha japo kwa kitambo kidogo tu?
(When will you stop looking at me and leave me alone [for a little time], long enough to swallow my spit?/Please stop looking at me and leave me alone [for a little time], long enough to swallow my spit.) [RHQ]
20 Ikiwa nimetenda dhambi, nimekufanyia nini, Ewe mlinzi wa wanadamu? Kwa nini umeniweka niwe shabaha yako? Je, nimekuwa mzigo kwako?
[Why do] you watch me constantly? If I sin, that certainly does not harm you! Why have you set me up like a target to shoot at? Do you consider me to be a heavy load that you are forced to carry?
21 Kwa nini husamehi makosa yangu na kuachilia dhambi zangu? Kwa kuwa hivi karibuni nitalala mavumbini; nawe utanitafuta, wala sitakuwepo.”
[If I have sinned, ] are you not able to forgive me for my sins— the things that I have done that are wrong? Soon I will lie in my grave; you will search for me, but [you will not find me because] I will be [dead and] gone.”
