अय्यूब 10
1 म आफ्नो जीवनदेखि थाकित छु । म आफ्नो गुनासो स्वतन्त्र भएर पोखाउनेछु । म आफ्नो प्राणको तिक्ततामा बोल्नेछु ।
“I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
2 म परमेश्वरलाई भन्नेछु, 'मलाई दोषी ठहराउने काम मात्र नगर्नुहोस् । तपाईंले मलाई किन दोष लगाउनुहुन्छ सो देखाउनुहोस् ।
I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
3 आफ्ना हातको कामलाई तुच्छ ठान्नलाई, तपाईंले मेरो थिचोमिचो गर्नु असल हो र, जब कि दुष्टहरूका योजनाहरूमा तपाईं मुस्काउनुहुन्छ?
Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
4 के तपाईंका मासुका आँखा छन्? के मानिसले झैं तपाईं देख्नुहुन्छ?
Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
5 के तपाईंका दिनहरू मानव-जातिका दिनझैं, वा तपाईंका वर्ष मानिसका वर्षझैं छन्,
(Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
6 तपाईंले मेरो अधर्मको जाँचबूझ गर्नुहुन्छ, र मेरो पाप खोज्न गर्नुहुन्छ,
So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
7 म दोषी छैनँ भनी तपाईं जान्नुहुन्छ, र कोही पनि छैन जसले मलाई तपाईंको हातबाट बचाउन सक्छ?
You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
8 तपाईंकै हातले सबैतिरबाट मलाई आकार दिएर, एकसाथ बनाए, तापनि तपाईंले मलाई नष्ट पार्दै हुनुहुन्छ ।
“'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
9 म बिन्ती गर्छु, माटोलाई आकार दिएझैं तपाईंले मलाई बनाउनुभएको कुरा सम्झनुहोस् । के तपाईंले मलाई फेरि धूलोमा नै पुर्याउनुहुन्छ?
Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
10 के तपाईंले मलाई दूधझैं खन्याउनुभएको छैन, अनि पनीरझैं जमाउनुभएको छैन?
You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
11 तपाईंले मलाई छाला र मासुले ढाक्नुभएको छ, अनि हड्डी र नसाहरूले एकसाथ गाँस्नुभएको छ ।
You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
12 तपाईंले मलाई जीवन र करारको विश्वस्तता दिनुभएको छ । तपाईंको मदतले मेरो आत्माको रक्षा भएको छ ।
You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
13 तापनि यी कुरा तपाईंले आफ्नै हृदयमा लुकाउनुभयो । तपाईंले यस्तो सोच्दै हुनुहुन्थ्यो भनी म जान्दछुः
“'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
14 मैले पाप गरें भने तपाईंले त्यो ख्याल गर्नुहुन्छ । तपाईंले मलाई मेरो अधर्मबाट छोड्नुहुन्न ।
You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
15 मैले दुष्टतासाथ काम गरेको भए, मलाई धिक्कार छ! र मैले धार्मिकतासाथ काम गरे पनि, मैले आफ्नो शिर ठाडो पार्न सकिनँ, किनकि म अपमानले भरिएको छु— मेरो कष्ट हेर्नुहोस् ।
If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
16 मेरो शिर ठाडो पारिएको भए, सिंहले झैं तपाईंले मलाई सिकार बनाउनुहुन्थ्यो । अनि तपाईंले फेरि पनि मेरो विरुद्धमा शक्तिका आश्चर्यपूर्ण कामहरूले आफूलाई देखाउनुहुन्थ्यो ।
And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
17 तपाईंले मेरो विरुद्धमा नयाँ साक्षीहरू ल्याउनुहुन्छ, र मेरो विरुद्धमा आफ्नो रिस बढाउनुहुन्छ । तपाईंले मलाई नयाँ फौजले आक्रमण गर्नुहुन्छ ।
You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
18 त्यसो भए, तपाईंले मलाई किन गर्भबाट बाहिर ल्याउनुभएको छ? मैले आफ्नो आत्मा त्यागेको भए, अनि कसैले कहिल्यै मलाई नदेखेको भए हुन्थ्यो ।
“'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
19 म कहिल्यै अस्तित्वमा नभएजस्तो हुन्थें । म गर्भबाट नै चिहानमा लगिन्थें ।
[I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
20 के मेरा दिनहरू थोरै मात्र छैनन् र? त्यसो भए, रोक्नुहोस्, मलाई नसताउनुहोस् जसले गर्दा केही क्षण म आराम गर्न सकूँ,
[I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
21 जहाँबाट म कहिलै फर्कन्न त्यहाँ जानुअगि, अन्धकारको देश र मृत्युको छायामा,
before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
22 मध्यरात जस्तै अँध्यारो देशमा, कुनै नियमबिनाको, मृत्युको छायाको देशमा, जहाँ उज्यालो नै मध्यरातजस्तो हुन्छ ।’”
a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
