Yobo 10
1 Nayini bomoi na ngai! Nakokoba kaka komilela, nakoloba na mongongo makasi mpe na pasi ya motema na ngai.
I hate my life! Let me speak freely about my complaints—I can't keep my bitterness to myself.
2 Nakoloba na Nzambe: ‹ Kokatela ngai etumbu te, yebisa ngai mabe nini nasali! ›
I will tell God, “Don't just condemn me—tell me what you have against me.
3 Boni, ozali kosepela konyokola ngai, kobwaka ekelamu oyo maboko na Yo esali, mpe kolongisa mabongisi ya bato mabe?
Do you enjoy accusing me? Why do you reject me, someone you made with your own hands, and yet smile on the scheming of the wicked?
4 Boni, ozali na miso ya mosuni? Ozali komona lokola bato?
Do you have human eyes? Do you see like human beings do?
5 Boni, mikolo na Yo ezali lokola mikolo ya bato, mpe mibu na yo, lokola mibu ya bato,
Is your life as short as mortal beings? Are your years as brief as those of humanity,
6 mpo ete oluka mabe na ngai to okundola masumu na ngai,
that you have to examine my wrongs and investigate my sins?
7 atako oyebi malamu ete nasali na ngai mabe te, mpe ete ezali na moto moko te oyo akoki kokangola ngai na loboko na Yo?
Even though you know I'm not guilty, no one can save me from you.
8 Maboko na Yo nde ebongisaki ngai mpe esalaki ngai; olingi sik’oyo kobenda nzoto mpe koboma ngai?
You made me and shaped me with your own hands, and yet you destroy me.
9 Kanisa ete Yo moko nde obongisaki ngai lokola mabele ya bikeko; olingi sik’oyo kozongisa ngai na putulu?
Remember that you shaped me like a piece of clay—are you now going to turn me back into dust?
10 Osopaki ngai lokola miliki te? Okangisaki ngai mbuma-mbuma te lokola fromage?
You poured me out like milk, you curdled me like cheese.
11 Olatisaki ngai poso ya nzoto mpe misuni te? Otongaki mikuwa mpe misisa na ngai te?
You clothed me with skin and flesh; you wove my body together with bones and muscles.
12 Opesaki ngai bomoi mpe otalisaki ngai bolamu; mpe na bonzambe na Yo, obatelaki molimo na ngai.
You granted me life and showed me your kindness; you have taken great care of me.
13 Kasi tala likambo oyo obombaki kati na motema na Yo, mpe nayebi ete ezalaka kati na makanisi na Yo.
But you kept these things hidden in your heart. I know your purpose was
14 Soki nasalaki masumu, olingaki komona ngai, mpe olingaki te kozanga kopesa ngai etumbu mpo na masumu na ngai.
to watch me, and if I sinned, then you would not forgive my wrongs.
15 Soki nazali na ngambo, wana mawa na ngai! Ata nasali mabe te, nazali kokoka te kotombola moto, pamba te natondisami na soni mpe nazindi kati na pasi na ngai.
If I'm guilty I'm in trouble, if I'm innocent I can't hold my head high because I'm totally disgraced as I look at my sufferings.
16 Soki nameki kotombola moto, ozali kolanda ngai lokola nkosi mpe ozali kobimisela ngai mayele na Yo nyonso mpo na kotelemela ngai,
If I do hold my head high you hunt me down like a lion, showing how powerful you are in hurting me.
17 ozali komemela ngai batatoli ya sika mpo na kotelemela ngai, ozali kopelisela ngai kanda na Yo mpo na kosala ngai mabe, mampinga na Yo bazali tango nyonso koya kobundisa ngai.
You repeat your arguments against me, you pour out more and more of your anger against me, you send fresh armies against me.
18 Mpo na nini obimisaki ngai na libumu ya mama na ngai? Nalingaki na ngai kokufa, mpe liso moko te elingaki komona ngai.
So why did you allow me to be born? I wish that I had died, and nobody had ever seen me!
19 Soki kutu nazalaka na ngai te, nalingaki koleka kaka mbala moko longwa na libumu ya mama kino na kunda.
It would have been better if I had never existed, taken straight from the womb to the grave.
20 Boni, mwa ndambo ya mikolo na ngai esili te? Kende ata mosika na ngai mpo ete nazwa ata tango ya kosepela
I only have a few days left, so why don't you leave me alone so I can have a little peace
21 liboso ete nakende na esika oyo bato bazongaka lisusu te, na mokili ya molili, mokili ya kufa,
before I go to where I shall never return from, the land of darkness and the shadow of death—
22 na mokili ya molili makasi, ya kufa mpe ya mobulu, epai wapi ata pole ezalaka molili. »
the land of total darkness where death's shadow lies, a place of chaos where light itself is darkness.”
