Ayub 10
1 "Aku telah bosan hidup, aku hendak melampiaskan keluhanku, aku hendak berbicara dalam kepahitan jiwaku.
“I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
2 Aku akan berkata kepada Allah: Jangan mempersalahkan aku; beritahukanlah aku, mengapa Engkau beperkara dengan aku.
I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
3 Apakah untungnya bagi-Mu mengadakan penindasan, membuang hasil jerih payah tangan-Mu, sedangkan Engkau mendukung rancangan orang fasik?
Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
4 Apakah Engkau mempunyai mata badani? Samakah penglihatan-Mu dengan penglihatan manusia?
Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
5 Apakah hari-hari-Mu seperti hari-hari manusia, tahun-tahun-Mu seperti hari-hari orang laki-laki,
(Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
6 sehingga Engkau mencari-cari kesalahanku, dan mengusut dosaku,
So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
7 padahal Engkau tahu, bahwa aku tidak bersalah, dan bahwa tiada seorangpun dapat memberi kelepasan dari tangan-Mu?
You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
8 Tangan-Mulah yang membentuk dan membuat aku, tetapi kemudian Engkau berpaling dan hendak membinasakan aku?
“'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
9 Ingatlah, bahwa Engkau yang membuat aku dari tanah liat, tetapi Engkau hendak menjadikan aku debu kembali?
Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
10 Bukankah Engkau yang mencurahkan aku seperti air susu, dan mengentalkan aku seperti keju?
You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
11 Engkau mengenakan kulit dan daging kepadaku, serta menjalin aku dengan tulang dan urat.
You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
12 Hidup dan kasih setia Kaukaruniakan kepadaku, dan pemeliharaan-Mu menjaga nyawaku.
You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
13 Tetapi inilah yang Kausembunyikan di dalam hati-Mu; aku tahu, bahwa inilah maksud-Mu:
“'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
14 kalau aku berbuat dosa, maka Engkau akan mengawasi aku, dan Engkau tidak akan membebaskan aku dari pada kesalahanku.
You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
15 Kalau aku bersalah, celakalah aku! dan kalau aku benar, aku takkan berani mengangkat kepalaku, karena kenyang dengan penghinaan, dan karena melihat sengsaraku.
If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
16 Kalau aku mengangkat kepalaku, maka seperti singa Engkau akan memburu aku, dan menunjukkan kembali kuasa-Mu yang ajaib kepadaku.
And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
17 Engkau akan mengajukan saksi-saksi baru terhadap aku, --Engkau memperbesar kegeraman-Mu terhadap aku--dan pasukan-pasukan baru, bahkan bala tentara melawan aku.
You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
18 Mengapa Engkau menyebabkan aku keluar dari kandungan? Lebih baik aku binasa, sebelum orang melihat aku!
“'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
19 Maka aku seolah-olah tidak pernah ada; dari kandungan ibu aku langsung dibawa ke kubur.
[I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
20 Bukankah hari-hari umurku hanya sedikit? Biarkanlah aku, supaya aku dapat bergembira sejenak,
[I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
21 sebelum aku pergi, dan tidak kembali lagi, ke negeri yang gelap dan kelam pekat,
before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
22 ke negeri yang gelap gulita, tempat yang kelam pekat dan kacau balau, di mana cahaya terang serupa dengan kegelapan."
a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
