Mazmur 38
1 Mazmur Daud waktu mempersembahkan kurban peringatan. TUHAN, jangan menghukum aku dalam kemarahan-Mu, jangan menyiksa aku dalam kemurkaan-Mu.
A Psalm of David, in commemoration of the Sabbath. O Lord, do not rebuke me in your fury, nor chastise me in your wrath.
2 Panah-Mu menembus melukai tubuhku, tangan-Mu terasa berat menekan aku.
For your arrows have been driven into me, and your hand has been confirmed over me.
3 Aku sakit parah karena kemarahan-Mu; tak ada yang sehat pada tubuhku karena dosaku.
There is no health in my flesh before the face of your wrath. There is no peace for my bones before the face of my sins.
4 Aku tenggelam dalam banjir kesalahanku, beban dosaku terlalu berat bagiku.
For my iniquities have walked over my head, and they have been like a heavy burden weighing upon me.
5 Luka-lukaku bernanah dan berbau busuk, karena aku telah berlaku bodoh.
My sores have putrefied and been corrupted before the face of my foolishness.
6 Aku tertunduk dan terbungkuk, sepanjang hari aku murung dan sedih.
I have become miserable, and I have been bent down, even to the end. I have walked with contrition all day long.
7 Demam membakar tubuhku, tak ada yang sehat pada badanku.
For my loins have been filled with illusions, and there is no health in my flesh.
8 Aku remuk-redam dan kehabisan tenaga, aku merintih karena hatiku resah.
I have been afflicted and greatly humbled. I bellowed from the groaning of my heart.
9 TUHAN, Engkau tahu segala keinginanku, keluh kesahku tidak tersembunyi bagi-Mu.
O Lord, all my desire is before you, and my groaning before you has not been hidden.
10 Jantungku berdebar-debar, tenagaku hilang, mataku sudah menjadi pudar.
My heart has been disturbed. My strength has abandoned me, and the light of my eyes has abandoned me, and it is not with me.
11 Handai-taulanku menghindar karena penyakitku, bahkan kaum kerabatku menjauhi aku.
My friends and my neighbors have drawn near and stood against me. And those who were next to me stood far apart. And those who sought my soul used violence.
12 Orang yang ingin membunuh aku memasang jerat bagiku; yang ingin mencelakakan aku mengancam hendak menumpas aku.
And those who sought evil accusations against me were speaking emptiness. And they practiced deceitfulness all day long.
13 Tetapi aku seperti orang tuli yang tidak mendengar, seperti orang bisu yang tidak bicara.
But, like someone deaf, I did not hear. And I was like someone mute, not opening his mouth.
14 Sungguh, aku seperti orang yang tidak mendengar, dan karena itu tidak membantah.
And I became like a man who does not hear, and who has no reproofs in his mouth.
15 Tetapi aku berharap kepada-Mu, ya TUHAN, dan Engkau, TUHAN Allahku, menjawab aku.
For in you, Lord, I have hoped. You will listen to me, O Lord my God.
16 Jangan biarkan musuhku senang melihat kesusahanku, jangan biarkan mereka membual bila aku goyah.
For I said, “Lest at any time, my enemies might rejoice over me,” and, “While my feet are being shaken, they have spoken great things against me.”
17 Aku hampir saja jatuh, terus menerus aku kesakitan.
For I have been prepared for scourges, and my sorrow is ever before me.
18 Aku mengakui dosa-dosaku; hatiku cemas memikirkan kesalahanku.
For I will announce my iniquity, and I will think about my sin.
19 Orang-orang yang memusuhi aku banyak dan kuat, mereka membenci cara hidupku.
But my enemies live, and they have been stronger than me. And those who have wrongfully hated me have been multiplied.
20 Orang yang membalas kebaikan dengan kejahatan memusuhi aku karena aku melakukan yang baik.
Those who render evil for good have dragged me down, because I followed goodness.
21 Ya TUHAN, jangan meninggalkan aku, jangan jauh daripadaku, ya Allahku.
Do not forsake me, O Lord my God. Do not depart from me.
22 Datanglah segera menolong aku, ya TUHAN penyelamatku.
Be attentive to my help, O Lord, the God of my salvation.
