Ayub 7
1 Manusia itu seperti dipaksa berjuang; hidupnya berat seperti hidup seorang upahan;
“Isn't life for human beings like serving a sentence of hard labor? Don't their days pass like those of a hired laborer?
2 seperti budak yang merindukan naungan; seperti buruh yang menantikan imbalan.
Like some slave longing for a bit of shade, like a hired hand anxiously waiting for pay day,
3 Bulan demi bulan hidupku tanpa tujuan; malam demi malam hatiku penuh kesedihan.
I've been given months of emptiness and nights of misery.
4 Bila aku pergi tidur, malam merentang panjang; kurindukan fajar, tak dapat kuberbaring tenang.
When I go to bed I ask, ‘When shall I get up?’ But the night goes on and on, and I toss and turn until dawn.
5 Tubuhku penuh cacing dan kerak darah; kulitku luka dan mengeluarkan nanah.
My body is covered with maggots and caked in dirt; my skin is cracked, with oozing sores.
6 Hidupku yang tanpa harap itu melaju menuju akhirnya, lebih laju daripada penenun menjalankan sekocinya.
My days pass quicker than a weaver's shuttle and they come to an end without hope.
7 Ingatlah, ya Allah, hidupku hanya hembusan napas; kebahagiaanku hilang, tak meninggalkan bekas.
Remember that my life is just a breath; I will not see happiness again.
8 Kini Engkau melihat aku--tetapi itu tidak lama. Jika nanti aku Kaucari, maka sudah tiada.
Those watching me won't see me anymore; your eyes will be looking for me, but I will be gone.
9 Seperti awan yang meredup lalu menghilang, manusia pun mati, tak akan kembali pulang. Semua orang yang pernah mengenal dia, lupa kepadanya dan tak lagi mengingatnya. (Sheol h7585)
When a cloud disappears, it's gone, just as anyone who goes down to Sheol does not come back up. (Sheol h7585)
They will never return home, and the people they knew will forget them.
11 Sebab itu aku tak dapat tinggal diam! Rasa pedih dan pahitku tak dapat kupendam. Aku harus membuka mulutku, dan mencurahkan isi hatiku.
So, no, I won't hold my tongue—I will speak in the agony of my spirit; I will complain in the bitterness of my soul.
12 Mengapa aku ini terus Kauawasi dan Kaujaga? Apakah aku ini naga laut yang berbahaya?
Am I the sea or a sea monster that you have to guard me?
13 Aku berbaring dan mencoba melepaskan lelah; aku mencari keringanan bagi hatiku yang gundah.
If I tell myself, ‘I'll feel better if I lie down in my bed,’ or ‘it will help me to lie down on my couch,’
14 Tetapi Kautakuti aku dengan impian; Kaudatangkan mimpi buruk dan khayalan.
then you scare me so much with dreams and terrify me with visions
15 Sehingga aku lebih suka dicekik lalu mati daripada hidup dalam tubuh penuh derita ini.
that I would rather be strangled—I would rather die than become just a bag of bones.
16 Aku lelah dan jemu hidup; aku ingin mati! Biarkan aku, sebab hidupku tidak berarti.
I hate my life! I know I won't live long. Leave me alone because my life is just a breath.
17 Mengapa manusia begitu penting bagi-Mu? Mengapa tindakannya Kauperhatikan selalu?
Why are human beings so important to you; why are you so concerned about them
18 Kauselidiki dia setiap pagi, dan setiap saat dia Kauuji.
that you inspect them every morning and test them every moment? Won't you ever stop staring at me?
19 Kapankah Engkau berpaling daripadaku, sehingga sempat aku menelan ludahku?
Won't you ever leave me alone long enough to catch my breath?
20 Hai Penjagaku, rugikah Engkau karena dosaku? Mengapa Kaupakai aku sebagai sasaran panah-Mu? Begitu beratkah aku membebani diri-Mu?
What have I done wrong? What have I done to you, Watcher of Humanity? Why have you made me your target, so that I'm a burden even to myself?
21 Tidak dapatkah Engkau mengampuni dosaku? Tidak mungkinkah Engkau menghapuskan salahku? Sebentar lagi aku terbaring dalam kuburan, dan bila Kaucari aku, tak akan Kaudapatkan."
If so why don't you pardon my sins, and take away my guilt? Right now I'm going to lie down in the dust, and though you will look for me, I will be gone.”
