Ayub 10
1 Aku bosan dan muak dengan hidupku, maka kucurahkan kepahitan jiwaku.
“I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
2 Ya Allah, janganlah aku Kaupersalahkan; jelaskanlah mengapa aku Kaulawan.
I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
3 Apa untungnya jika Engkau menindas begini, dan membuang hasil karya-Mu sendiri? Apa untungnya jika Engkau mendukung pendapat dan rencana para penjahat?
Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
4 Pandangan-Mu tak sama dengan pandangan manusia
Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
5 dan usia-Mu tidak sependek umurnya.
(Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
6 Kalau begitu, mengapa Kauusut segala dosaku? mengapa Kauburu setiap kesalahanku?
So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
7 Sebenarnya Engkau tahu dan sadar, bahwa aku tak salah, tetapi benar. Kau tahu bahwa seorang pun tidak mampu menyelamatkan aku dari tangan-Mu.
You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
8 Aku ini dibentuk oleh tangan-Mu, masakan kini hendak Kaubinasakan aku?
“'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
9 Ingatlah bahwa dari tanah liat Kauciptakan aku! Masakan Kaubuat aku kembali menjadi debu?
Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
10 Kaumungkinkan ayahku menjadikan aku dan Kaubesarkan aku dalam rahim ibu.
You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
11 Tubuhku Kaubentuk dengan kerangka dan urat; tulangku Kauberi daging dan kulit pembebat.
You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
12 Kauberi aku hidup; Engkau mengasihi aku, nyawaku Kaujaga dengan pemeliharaan-Mu.
You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
13 Tetapi sekarang kutahu bahwa selama itu, diam-diam telah Kaurancangkan celakaku.
“'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
14 Kauawasi aku kalau-kalau berbuat kesalahan agar dapat Kautolak memberi pengampunan.
You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
15 Jikalau aku berbuat dosa, maka nasibku sungguh celaka! Tapi jika perbuatanku tak tercela, tetaplah aku dianggap berbuat dosa! Tak berani aku mengangkat kepala, sebab merasa sedih dan terhina.
If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
16 Jika kuberhasil, walau tak seberapa, Engkau memburu aku seperti singa. Dan Kautunjukkan kembali kuasa-Mu, hanyalah untuk menakutkan aku.
And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
17 Selalu Kauajukan saksi melawan aku; dan semakin besarlah murka-Mu kepadaku. Kaukerahkan pasukan-pasukan baru untuk menyerang dan memerangi aku.
You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
18 Mengapa Kaubiarkan aku lahir ke dunia? Lebih baik aku mati saja sebelum dilihat manusia!
“'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
19 Maka seolah-olah aku tidak pernah dilahirkan, sebab dari rahim langsung dikuburkan.
[I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
20 Ah, tak lama lagi aku akan mati, maka biarkanlah aku sendiri, agar dapat aku menikmati masaku yang masih sisa ini.
[I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
21 Tak lama lagi aku pergi dan tak kembali, menuju negeri yang gelap dan suram sekali,
before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
22 negeri yang kelam, penuh bayangan dan kekacauan, di mana terang serupa dengan kegelapan."
a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
