תְהִלִּים 38

1 מִזְמֹ֖ור לְדָוִ֣ד לְהַזְכִּֽיר׃ יְֽהוָ֗ה אַל־בְּקֶצְפְּךָ֥ תֹוכִיחֵ֑נִי וּֽבַחֲמָתְךָ֥ תְיַסְּרֵֽנִי׃

A psalm of David, for a memorial. Lord, please don't condemn me because you're angry with me; don't punish me because you're furious with me!

2 כִּֽי־חִ֭צֶּיךָ נִ֣חֲתוּ בִ֑י וַתִּנְחַ֖ת עָלַ֣י יָדֶֽךָ׃

Your arrows have pierced me deeply, your hand has come down hard on me.

3 אֵין־מְתֹ֣ם בִּ֭בְשָׂרִי מִפְּנֵ֣י זַעְמֶ֑ךָ אֵין־שָׁלֹ֥ום בַּ֝עֲצָמַ֗י מִפְּנֵ֥י חַטָּאתִֽי׃

Because you're so upset with me, not a single part of my body is healthy; I am completely sick because of my sins.

4 כִּ֣י עֲ֭וֹנֹתַי עָבְר֣וּ רֹאשִׁ֑י כְּמַשָּׂ֥א כָ֝בֵ֗ד יִכְבְּד֥וּ מִמֶּֽנִּי׃

I'm drowning in guilt—the burden is too heavy to bear.

5 הִבְאִ֣ישׁוּ נָ֭מַקּוּ חַבּוּרֹתָ֑י מִ֝פְּנֵ֗י אִוַּלְתִּֽי׃

My wounds are infected—they're smelling—all because of my stupidity.

6 נַעֲוֵ֣יתִי שַׁחֹ֣תִי עַד־מְאֹ֑ד כָּל־הַ֝יֹּ֗ום קֹדֵ֥ר הִלָּֽכְתִּי׃

I am bent over, doubled up in pain. The whole day I walk around crying my eyes out.

7 כִּֽי־כְ֭סָלַי מָלְא֣וּ נִקְלֶ֑ה וְאֵ֥ין מְ֝תֹ֗ם בִּבְשָׂרִֽי׃

Inside I'm burning up with fever; no part of my body is healthy.

8 נְפוּגֹ֣ותִי וְנִדְכֵּ֣יתִי עַד־מְאֹ֑ד שָׁ֝אַ֗גְתִּי מִֽנַּהֲמַ֥ת לִבִּֽי׃

I'm worn out, totally down. I groan because of the anguish I feel in my heart.

9 אֲ‍ֽדֹנָי נֶגְדְּךָ֥ כָל־תַּאֲוָתִ֑י וְ֝אַנְחָתִ֗י מִמְּךָ֥ לֹא־נִסְתָּֽרָה׃

Lord, you know what I desperately want, you hear every sigh I make.

10 לִבִּ֣י סְ֭חַרְחַר עֲזָבַ֣נִי כֹחִ֑י וְֽאֹור־עֵינַ֥י גַּם־הֵ֝֗ם אֵ֣ין אִתִּֽי׃

My heart is racing, leaving me with no strength; my eyesight is failing.

11 אֹֽהֲבַ֨י ׀ וְרֵעַ֗י מִנֶּ֣גֶד נִגְעִ֣י יַעֲמֹ֑דוּ וּ֝קְרֹובַ֗י מֵרָחֹ֥ק עָמָֽדוּ׃

My loved ones and my friends don't come near me because they're afraid of what I've got. Even my family keeps me at a distance.

12 וַיְנַקְשׁ֤וּ ׀ מְבַקְשֵׁ֬י נַפְשִׁ֗י וְדֹרְשֵׁ֣י רָ֭עָתִי דִּבְּר֣וּ הַוֹּ֑ות וּ֝מִרְמֹ֗ות כָּל־הַיֹּ֥ום יֶהְגּֽוּ׃

Those who are trying to kill me set traps for me; those who want to hurt me make threats against me, working on their deceitful schemes all day long.

13 וַאֲנִ֣י כְ֭חֵרֵשׁ לֹ֣א אֶשְׁמָ֑ע וּ֝כְאִלֵּ֗ם לֹ֣א יִפְתַּח־פִּֽיו׃

I act as if I'm deaf to what they're saying, and pretend to be dumb so I don't have to speak.

14 וָאֱהִ֗י כְּ֭אִישׁ אֲשֶׁ֣ר לֹא־שֹׁמֵ֑עַ וְאֵ֥ין בְּ֝פִ֗יו תֹּוכָחֹֽות׃

Like a man who can't hear, and who doesn't reply—that's me!

15 כִּֽי־לְךָ֣ יְהוָ֣ה הֹוחָ֑לְתִּי אַתָּ֥ה תַ֝עֲנֶ֗ה אֲדֹנָ֥י אֱלֹהָֽי׃

For I'm waiting on you, Lord! You will answer for me, my Lord and my God.

16 כִּֽי־אָ֭מַרְתִּי פֶּן־יִשְׂמְחוּ־לִ֑י בְּמֹ֥וט רַ֝גְלִ֗י עָלַ֥י הִגְדִּֽילוּ׃

I'm asking you, Lord, please don't let my enemies gloat over me, don't let them be glad when I trip up.

17 כִּֽי־אֲ֭נִי לְצֶ֣לַע נָכֹ֑ון וּמַכְאֹובִ֖י נֶגְדִּ֣י תָמִֽיד׃

For I'm about ready to collapse—the pain never stops.

18 כִּֽי־עֲוֹנִ֥י אַגִּ֑יד אֶ֝דְאַ֗ג מֵֽחַטָּאתִֽי׃

I do confess my sins; I am terribly sorry for what I've done.

19 וְֽ֭אֹיְבַי חַיִּ֣ים עָצֵ֑מוּ וְרַבּ֖וּ שֹׂנְאַ֣י שָֽׁקֶר׃

I have many powerful enemies—they are very active, hating me for no reason.

20 וּמְשַׁלְּמֵ֣י רָ֭עָה תַּ֣חַת טֹובָ֑ה יִ֝שְׂטְנ֗וּנִי תַּ֣חַת רְדֹופִי־ (רָֽדְפִי)־טֹֽוב׃

They pay me back evil for good; they accuse me for the good I try to do.

21 אַל־תַּֽעַזְבֵ֥נִי יְהוָ֑ה אֱ֝לֹהַ֗י אַל־תִּרְחַ֥ק מִמֶּֽנִּי׃

Don't give up on me, my Lord and my God, don't stay away from me.

22 ח֥וּשָׁה לְעֶזְרָתִ֑י אֲ֝דֹנָ֗י תְּשׁוּעָתִֽי׃

Hurry, come and help me, Lord my salvation.