< איוב 10 >
נָֽקְטָה נַפְשִׁי בְּחַיָּי אֶעֶזְבָה עָלַי שִׂיחִי אֲדַבְּרָה בְּמַר נַפְשִֽׁי׃ | 1 |
“I loathe my own life; I will express my complaint and speak in the bitterness of my soul.
אֹמַר אֶל־אֱלוֹהַּ אַל־תַּרְשִׁיעֵנִי הוֹדִיעֵנִי עַל מַה־תְּרִיבֵֽנִי׃ | 2 |
I will say to God: Do not condemn me! Let me know why You prosecute me.
הֲטוֹב לְךָ ׀ כִּֽי־תַעֲשֹׁק כִּֽי־תִמְאַס יְגִיעַ כַּפֶּיךָ וְעַל־עֲצַת רְשָׁעִים הוֹפָֽעְתָּ׃ | 3 |
Does it please You to oppress me, to reject the work of Your hands and favor the schemes of the wicked?
הַעֵינֵי בָשָׂר לָךְ אִם־כִּרְאוֹת אֱנוֹשׁ תִּרְאֶֽה׃ | 4 |
Do You have eyes of flesh? Do You see as man sees?
הֲכִימֵי אֱנוֹשׁ יָמֶיךָ אִם־שְׁנוֹתֶיךָ כִּימֵי גָֽבֶר׃ | 5 |
Are Your days like those of a mortal, or Your years like those of a man,
כִּֽי־תְבַקֵּשׁ לַעֲוֺנִי וּֽלְחַטָּאתִי תִדְרֽוֹשׁ׃ | 6 |
that You should seek my iniquity and search out my sin—
עַֽל־דַּעְתְּךָ כִּי־לֹא אֶרְשָׁע וְאֵין מִיָּדְךָ מַצִּֽיל׃ | 7 |
though You know that I am not guilty, and there is no deliverance from Your hand?
יָדֶיךָ עִצְּבוּנִי וַֽיַּעֲשׂוּנִי יַחַד סָבִיב וַֽתְּבַלְּעֵֽנִי׃ | 8 |
Your hands shaped me and altogether formed me. Would You now turn and destroy me?
זְכׇר־נָא כִּֽי־כַחֹמֶר עֲשִׂיתָנִי וְֽאֶל־עָפָר תְּשִׁיבֵֽנִי׃ | 9 |
Please remember that You molded me like clay. Would You now return me to dust?
הֲלֹא כֶחָלָב תַּתִּיכֵנִי וְכַגְּבִנָּה תַּקְפִּיאֵֽנִי׃ | 10 |
Did You not pour me out like milk, and curdle me like cheese?
עוֹר וּבָשָׂר תַּלְבִּישֵׁנִי וּֽבַעֲצָמוֹת וְגִידִים תְּשֹׂכְכֵֽנִי׃ | 11 |
You clothed me with skin and flesh, and knit me together with bones and sinews.
חַיִּים וָחֶסֶד עָשִׂיתָ עִמָּדִי וּפְקֻדָּתְךָ שָֽׁמְרָה רוּחִֽי׃ | 12 |
You have granted me life and loving devotion, and Your care has preserved my spirit.
וְאֵלֶּה צָפַנְתָּ בִלְבָבֶךָ יָדַעְתִּי כִּי־זֹאת עִמָּֽךְ׃ | 13 |
Yet You concealed these things in Your heart, and I know that this was in Your mind:
אִם־חָטָאתִי וּשְׁמַרְתָּנִי וּמֵעֲוֺנִי לֹא תְנַקֵּֽנִי׃ | 14 |
If I sinned, You would take note, and would not acquit me of my iniquity.
אִם־רָשַׁעְתִּי אַלְלַי לִי וְצָדַקְתִּי לֹא־אֶשָּׂא רֹאשִׁי שְׂבַע קָלוֹן וּרְאֵה עׇנְיִֽי׃ | 15 |
If I am guilty, woe to me! And even if I am righteous, I cannot lift my head. I am full of shame and aware of my affliction.
וְיִגְאֶה כַּשַּׁחַל תְּצוּדֵנִי וְתָשֹׁב תִּתְפַּלָּא־בִֽי׃ | 16 |
Should I hold my head high, You would hunt me like a lion, and again display Your power against me.
תְּחַדֵּשׁ עֵדֶיךָ ׀ נֶגְדִּי וְתֶרֶב כַּעַשְׂךָ עִמָּדִי חֲלִיפוֹת וְצָבָא עִמִּֽי׃ | 17 |
You produce new witnesses against me and multiply Your anger toward me. Hardships assault me in wave after wave.
וְלָמָּה מֵרֶחֶם הֹצֵאתָנִי אֶגְוַע וְעַיִן לֹֽא־תִרְאֵֽנִי׃ | 18 |
Why then did You bring me from the womb? Oh, that I had died, and no eye had seen me!
כַּאֲשֶׁר לֹא־הָיִיתִי אֶהְיֶה מִבֶּטֶן לַקֶּבֶר אוּבָֽל׃ | 19 |
If only I had never come to be, but had been carried from the womb to the grave.
הֲלֹֽא־מְעַט יָמַי (יחדל) [וַחֲדָל] (ישית) [וְשִׁית] מִמֶּנִּי וְאַבְלִיגָה מְּעָֽט׃ | 20 |
Are my days not few? Withdraw from me, that I may have a little comfort,
בְּטֶרֶם אֵלֵךְ וְלֹא אָשׁוּב אֶל־אֶרֶץ חֹשֶׁךְ וְצַלְמָֽוֶת׃ | 21 |
before I go—never to return— to a land of darkness and gloom,
אֶרֶץ עֵפָתָה ׀ כְּמוֹ אֹפֶל צַלְמָוֶת וְלֹא סְדָרִים וַתֹּפַע כְּמוֹ־אֹֽפֶל׃ | 22 |
to a land of utter darkness, of deep shadow and disorder, where even the light is like darkness.”