Job 10
1 “I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
“My soul has been weary of my life, I leave off my talking to myself, I speak in the bitterness of my soul.
2 I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
I say to God, Do not condemn me, Let me know why You strive [with] me.
3 Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
Is it good for You that You oppress? That You despise the labor of Your hands, And shine on the counsel of the wicked?
4 Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
Do you have eyes of flesh? Do You see as man sees?
5 (Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
[Are] Your days as the days of man? Your years as the days of a man?
6 So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
That You inquire for my iniquity, And seek for my sin?
7 You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
For You know that I am not wicked, And there is no deliverer from Your hand.
8 “'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
Your hands have taken pains about me, And they make me together all around, And You swallow me up!
9 Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
Please remember That You have made me as clay, And You bring me back to dust.
10 You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
Do You not pour me out as milk? And curdle me as cheese?
11 You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
Skin and flesh You put on me, And fence me with bones and sinews.
12 You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
Life and kindness You have done with me. And Your inspection has preserved my spirit.
13 “'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
And these You have laid up in Your heart, I have known that this [is] with You.
14 You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
If I sinned, then You have observed me, And do not acquit me from my iniquity,
15 If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
If I have done wickedly—woe to me, And righteously—I do not lift up my head, Full of shame—then see my affliction,
16 And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
And it rises—as a lion You hunt me. And You turn back—You show Yourself wonderful in me.
17 You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
You renew Your witnesses against me, and multiply Your anger with me, Changes and warfare [are] with me.
18 “'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
And why from the womb Have You brought me forth? I expire, and the eye does not see me.
19 [I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
I am as [if] I had not been, I am brought from the belly to the grave,
20 [I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
Are my days not few? Cease then, and put from me, And I brighten up a little,
21 before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
Before I go, and do not return, To a land of darkness and death-shade,
22 a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
A land of obscurity as thick darkness, Death-shade—and no order, And the shining [is] as thick darkness.”
