< Job 10 >
1 “I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
Weary in my soul, I will pour my words with groans upon him: I will speak being straitened in the bitterness of my soul.
2 I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
And I will say to the Lord, Do not teach me to be impious; and therefore have you thus judged me?
3 Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
Is it good before you if I be unrighteous? for you have disowned the work of your hands, and attended to the counsel of the ungodly.
4 Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
Or do you see as a mortal sees? or will you look as a man sees?
5 (Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
Or is your life human, or your years [the years] of a man,
6 So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
that you have enquired into mine iniquity, and searched out my sins?
7 You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
For you know that I have not committed iniquity: but who is he that can deliver out of your hands?
8 “'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
Your hands have formed me and made me; afterwards you did change [your mind], and strike me.
9 Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
Remember that you have made me [as] clay, and you do turn me again to earth.
10 You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
Hast you not poured me out like milk, and curdled me like cheese?
11 You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
And you did clothe me with skin and flesh, and frame me with bones and sinews.
12 You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
And you did bestow upon me life and mercy, and your oversight has preserved my spirit.
13 “'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
Having these things in yourself, I know that you can do all things; for nothing is impossible with you.
14 You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
And if I should sin, you watch me; and you have not cleared me from iniquity.
15 If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
Or if I should be ungodly, woe is me: and if I should be righteous, I can’t lift myself up, for I am full of dishonor.
16 And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
For I am hunted like a lion for slaughter; for again you have changed and are terribly destroying me;
17 You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
renewing against me my torture: and you have dealt with me in great anger, and you have brought trials upon me.
18 “'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
Why then did you bring me out of the womb? and why did I not die, and no eye see me,
19 [I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
and I become as if I had not been? for why was I not carried from the womb to the grave?
20 [I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
Is not the time of my life short? suffer me to rest a little,
21 before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
before I go whence I shall not return, to a land of darkness and gloominess;
22 a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
to a land of perpetual darkness, where there is no light, neither [can any one] see the life of mortals.