Job 10
1 “I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
My soul is weary of my life. I will release my words against myself. I will speak in the bitterness of my soul.
2 I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
I will say to God: Do not be willing to condemn me. Reveal to me why you judge me this way.
3 Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
Does it seem good to you, if you find fault with me and oppress me, the work of your own hands, and assist the counsel of the impious?
4 Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
Do you have bodily eyes? Or, just as man sees, will you see?
5 (Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
Are your days just like the days of man, and are your years as the times of humans,
6 So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
so that you would inquire about my iniquity and examine my sin?
7 You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
And you know that I have done nothing impious, yet there is no one who can deliver from your hand.
8 “'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
Your hands have made me and formed me all around, and, in this way, do you suddenly throw me away?
9 Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
Remember, I ask you, that you have fashioned me like clay, and you will reduce me to dust.
10 You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
Have you not extracted me like milk and curdled me like cheese?
11 You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
You have clothed me with skin and flesh. You have put me together with bones and nerves.
12 You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
You have assigned to me life and mercy, and your visitation has preserved my spirit.
13 “'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
Though you may conceal this in your heart, yet I know that you remember everything.
14 You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
If I have sinned, and you have spared me for an hour, why do you not endure me to be clean from my iniquity?
15 If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
And if I should be impious, woe to me, and if I should be just, I will not lift up my head, being drenched with affliction and misery.
16 And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
And because of pride, you will seize me like a lioness, and having returned, you torment me to an extraordinary degree.
17 You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
You renew your testimony against me, and you multiply your wrath against me, and these punishments make war within me.
18 “'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
Why did you lead me out of the womb? If only I had been consumed, so that no eye would ever see me!
19 [I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
I should have been as if I had not been: transferred from the womb to the tomb.
20 [I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
Will not my few days be completed soon? Release me, therefore, so that I may lament my sorrows a little,
21 before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
before I depart and return no more to a land that is dark and covered with the fog of death,
22 a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
a land of misery and darkness, where the shadow of death, and nothing else but everlasting horror, dwells.
