Job 10
1 “I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
My soul is tired of life; I will let my sad thoughts go free in words; my soul will make a bitter outcry.
2 I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
I will say to God, Do not put me down as a sinner; make clear to me what you have against me.
3 Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
What profit is it to you to be cruel, to give up the work of your hands, looking kindly on the design of evil-doers?
4 Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
Have you eyes of flesh, or do you see as man sees?
5 (Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
Are your days as the days of man, or your years like his,
6 So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
That you take note of my sin, searching after my wrongdoing,
7 You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
Though you see that I am not an evil-doer; and there is no one who is able to take a man out of your hands?
8 “'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
Your hands made me, and I was formed by you, but then, changing your purpose, you gave me up to destruction.
9 Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
O keep in mind that you made me out of earth; and will you send me back again to dust?
10 You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
Was I not drained out like milk, becoming hard like cheese?
11 You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
By you I was clothed with skin and flesh, and joined together with bones and muscles.
12 You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
You have been kind to me, and your grace has been with me, and your care has kept my spirit safe.
13 “'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
But you kept these things in the secret of your heart; I am certain this was in your thoughts:
14 You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
That, if I did wrong, you would take note of it, and would not make me clear from sin:
15 If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
That, if I was an evil-doer, the curse would come on me; and if I was upright, my head would not be lifted up, being full of shame and overcome with trouble.
16 And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
And that if there was cause for pride, you would go after me like a lion; and again put out your wonders against me:
17 You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
That you would send new witnesses against me, increasing your wrath against me, and letting loose new armies on me.
18 “'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
Why then did you make me come out of my mother's body? It would have been better for me to have taken my last breath, and for no eye to have seen me,
19 [I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
And for me to have been as if I had not been; to have been taken from my mother's body straight to my last resting-place.
20 [I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
Are not the days of my life small in number? Let your eyes be turned away from me, so that I may have a little pleasure,
21 before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
Before I go to the place from which I will not come back, to the land where all is dark and black,
22 a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
A land of thick dark, without order, where the very light is dark.
