< Job 10 >
1 I am weary of my life; I will let loose within me my complaint; I will speak in the bitterness of my soul.
“I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
2 I will say unto God, Do not condemn me! Show me wherefore thou contendest with me!
I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
3 Is it a pleasure to thee to oppress, And to despise the work of thy hands, And to shine upon the plans of the wicked?
Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
4 Hast thou eyes of flesh, Or seest thou as man seeth?
Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
5 Are thy days as the days of a man, Are thy years as the days of a mortal,
(Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
6 That thou seekest after my iniquity, And searchest after my sin,
So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
7 Though thou knowest that I am not guilty, And that none can deliver from thy hand?
You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
8 Have thy hands completely fashioned and made me In every part, that thou mightst destroy me?
“'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
9 O remember that thou hast moulded me as clay! And wilt thou bring me again to dust?
Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
10 Thou didst pour me out as milk, And curdle me as cheese;
You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
11 With skin and flesh didst thou clothe me, And strengthen me with bones and sinews;
You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
12 Thou didst grant me life and favor, And thy protection preserved my breath:
You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
13 Yet these things thou didst lay up in thy heart! I know that this was in thy mind.
“'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
14 If I sin, then thou markest me, And wilt not acquit me of mine iniquity.
You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
15 If I am wicked, —then woe unto me! Yet if righteous, I dare not lift up my head; I am full of confusion, beholding my affliction.
If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
16 If I lift it up, like a lion thou huntest me, And again showest thyself terrible unto me.
And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
17 Thou renewest thy witnesses against me, And increasest thine anger toward me; New hosts continually rise up against me.
You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
18 Why then didst thou bring me forth from the womb? I should have perished, and no eye had seen me;
“'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
19 I should be as though I had not been; I should have been borne from the womb to the grave.
[I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
20 Are not my days few? O spare then, And let me alone, that I may be at ease a little while,
[I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
21 Before I go— whence I shall not return—To the land of darkness and death-shade,
before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
22 The land of darkness like the blackness of death-shade, Where is no order, and where the light is as darkness.
a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”