< Job 10 >

1 My soul is disgusted with my life; I will give free vent to my complaint over myself; I will speak in the bitterness of my soul.
قَدْ كَرِهْتُ حَيَاتِي، لِهَذَا أُطْلِقُ الْعَنَانَ لِشَكْوَايَ، وَأَتَحَدَّثُ عَنْ أَشْجَانِي فِي مَرَارَةِ نَفْسِي،١
2 I will say unto God, Do not condemn me; let me know for what cause thou contendest against me.
قَائِلاً لِلهِ: لَا تَسْتَذْنِبْنِي. فَهِّمْنِي لِمَاذَا تُخَاصِمُنِي؟٢
3 Is it well for thee that thou shouldst oppress, that thou shouldst reject the labor of thy hands, and shed light upon the counsel of the wicked?
أَيَحْلُو لَكَ أَنْ تَظْلِمَ وَتَنْبِذَ عَمَلَ يَدِكَ، وَتُحَبِّذَ مَشُورَةَ الأَشْرَارِ؟٣
4 Hast thou eyes of flesh? or wilt thou see as a mortal seeth?
أَلَكَ عَيْنَا بَشَرٍ، أَمْ كَنَظَرِ الإِنْسَانِ تَنْظُرُ؟٤
5 Are thy days as the days of a mortal, or are thy years as the days of a man,
هَلْ أَيَّامُكَ مِثْلُ أَيَّامِ الإِنْسَانِ، أَمْ سِنُوكَ فِي قِصَرِ سِنِيِ الْبَشَرِ،٥
6 That thou inquirest after my iniquity, and searchest after my sin?
حَتَّى تَبْحَثَ عَنْ إِثْمِي وَتُنَقِّبَ عَنْ خَطَايَايَ؟٦
7 Still it is within thy knowledge that I am not wicked, and there is none that can deliver me out of thy hand.
فَأَنْتَ عَالِمٌ أَنِّي لَسْتُ مُذْنِباً، وَأَنَّهُ لَا مُنْقِذَ مِنْ يَدِكَ.٧
8 Thy hands have carefully fashioned me and made me; every thing is in harmony all round about; and yet thou dost destroy me!
قَدْ كَوَّنَتْنِي يَدَاكَ وَصَنَعَتَانِي بِجُمْلَتِي، وَالآنَ الْتَفَتَّ إِلَيَّ لِتَسْحَقَنِي!٨
9 Remember, I beseech thee, that as though I were clay hast thou made me; and wilt thou cause me to return again unto the dust?
اذْكُرْ أَنَّكَ جَبَلْتَنِي مِنْ طِينٍ، أَتُرْجِعُنِي بَعْدُ إِلَى التُّرَابِ؟٩
10 Behold, like milk didst thou pour me out, and like cheese didst thou curdle me.
أَلَمْ تَصُبَّنِي كَاللَّبَنِ وَتُخَثِّرْنِي كَالْجُبْنِ؟١٠
11 With skin and flesh didst thou clothe me, and with bones and sinews didst thou cover me.
كَسَوْتَنِي جِلْداً وَلَحْماً، فَنَسَجْتَنِي بِعِظَامٍ وَعَصَبٍ.١١
12 Life and kindness didst thou grant me, and thy providence watched over my spirit.
مَنَحْتَنِي حَيَاةً وَرَحْمَةً، وَحَفِظَتْ عِنَايَتُكَ رُوحِي.١٢
13 And yet these things hadst thou treasured up in thy heart: I know that this was [resolved] within thee.
كَتَمْتَ هَذِهِ الأُمُورَ فِي قَلْبِكَ، إِلّا أَنِّي عَلِمْتُ أَنَّ هَذَا قَصْدُكَ.١٣
14 If I have sinned, then dost thou watch me, and from my iniquity thou wilt not declare me guiltless.
إِنْ أَخْطَأْتُ فَأَنْتَ تُرَاقِبُنِي، وَلا تُبْرِئُنِي مِنْ إِثْمِي.١٤
15 If I be wicked, woe unto me: and if I be righteous, I can still not lift up my head; I am sated with disgrace, and ever seeing my affliction;
إِنْ أَذْنَبْتُ فَوَيْلٌ لِي. وَإِنْ كُنْتُ بَارّاً لَا أَرْفَعُ رَأْسِي، لأَنِّي مُمْتَلِئٌ هَوَاناً وَنَاظِرٌ مَذَلَّتِي،١٥
16 And it constantly increaseth; like a fierce lion dost thou hunt for me; and again thou showest thyself continually wonderful on me;
وَإِنْ شَمَخْتُ بِرَأْسِي تَقْتَنِصُنِي كَالأَسَدِ، ثُمَّ تَعُودُ فَتَصُولُ عَلَيَّ.١٦
17 Thou ever renewest thy witnesses against me, and causest thy indignation to grow strong against me; changes and multitudes [of sufferings] are around me.
تُجَدِّدُ شُهُودَكَ ضِدِّي، وَتُضْرِمُ غَضَبَكَ عَلَيَّ، وَتُؤَلِّبُ جُيُوشاً تَتَنَاوَبُ ضِدِّي.١٧
18 Wherefore then didst thou bring me forth out of the womb? Oh that I had perished, and that no eye had seen me!
لِمَاذَا أَخْرَجْتَنِي مِنَ الرَّحِمِ؟ أَلَمْ يَكُنْ خَيْراً لَوْ أَسْلَمْتُ الرُّوحَ وَلَمْ تَرَنِي عَيْنٌ؟١٨
19 That I were as though I had not been, —had been borne from the womb to the grave.
فَأَكُونُ كَأَنِّي لَمْ أَكُنْ فَأُنْقَلُ مِنَ الرَّحِمِ إِلَى الْقَبْرِ.١٩
20 Lo! my days are but few: cease, then, withdraw from me [thy hand], that I may recover my cheerfulness a little.
أَلَيْسَتْ أَيَّامِي قَلِيلَةً؟ كُفَّ عَنِّي لَعَلِّي أَتَمَتَّعُ بِبَعْضِ الْبَهْجَةِ،٢٠
21 Before I go, and return not, to the land of darkness and the shadow of death,
قَبْلَ أَنْ أَمْضِيَ إِلَى حَيْثُ لَا أَعُودُ، إِلَى أَرْضِ الظُّلْمَةِ وَظِلِّ الْمَوْتِ،٢١
22 A land of utter gloom, as of the darkness of the shadow of death, without any order, and the light of which is like utter gloom.
إِلَى أَرْضِ الظُّلْمَةِ الْمُتَكَاثِفَةِ وَالْفَوْضَى، حَيْثُ الإِشْرَاقُ فِيهَا كَاللَّيْلِ الْبَهِيمِ».٢٢

< Job 10 >