< أيُّوب 10 >

قَدْ كَرِهْتُ حَيَاتِي، لِهَذَا أُطْلِقُ الْعَنَانَ لِشَكْوَايَ، وَأَتَحَدَّثُ عَنْ أَشْجَانِي فِي مَرَارَةِ نَفْسِي، ١ 1
“I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
قَائِلاً لِلهِ: لَا تَسْتَذْنِبْنِي. فَهِّمْنِي لِمَاذَا تُخَاصِمُنِي؟ ٢ 2
I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
أَيَحْلُو لَكَ أَنْ تَظْلِمَ وَتَنْبِذَ عَمَلَ يَدِكَ، وَتُحَبِّذَ مَشُورَةَ الأَشْرَارِ؟ ٣ 3
Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
أَلَكَ عَيْنَا بَشَرٍ، أَمْ كَنَظَرِ الإِنْسَانِ تَنْظُرُ؟ ٤ 4
Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
هَلْ أَيَّامُكَ مِثْلُ أَيَّامِ الإِنْسَانِ، أَمْ سِنُوكَ فِي قِصَرِ سِنِيِ الْبَشَرِ، ٥ 5
(Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
حَتَّى تَبْحَثَ عَنْ إِثْمِي وَتُنَقِّبَ عَنْ خَطَايَايَ؟ ٦ 6
So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
فَأَنْتَ عَالِمٌ أَنِّي لَسْتُ مُذْنِباً، وَأَنَّهُ لَا مُنْقِذَ مِنْ يَدِكَ. ٧ 7
You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
قَدْ كَوَّنَتْنِي يَدَاكَ وَصَنَعَتَانِي بِجُمْلَتِي، وَالآنَ الْتَفَتَّ إِلَيَّ لِتَسْحَقَنِي! ٨ 8
“'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
اذْكُرْ أَنَّكَ جَبَلْتَنِي مِنْ طِينٍ، أَتُرْجِعُنِي بَعْدُ إِلَى التُّرَابِ؟ ٩ 9
Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
أَلَمْ تَصُبَّنِي كَاللَّبَنِ وَتُخَثِّرْنِي كَالْجُبْنِ؟ ١٠ 10
You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
كَسَوْتَنِي جِلْداً وَلَحْماً، فَنَسَجْتَنِي بِعِظَامٍ وَعَصَبٍ. ١١ 11
You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
مَنَحْتَنِي حَيَاةً وَرَحْمَةً، وَحَفِظَتْ عِنَايَتُكَ رُوحِي. ١٢ 12
You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
كَتَمْتَ هَذِهِ الأُمُورَ فِي قَلْبِكَ، إِلّا أَنِّي عَلِمْتُ أَنَّ هَذَا قَصْدُكَ. ١٣ 13
“'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
إِنْ أَخْطَأْتُ فَأَنْتَ تُرَاقِبُنِي، وَلا تُبْرِئُنِي مِنْ إِثْمِي. ١٤ 14
You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
إِنْ أَذْنَبْتُ فَوَيْلٌ لِي. وَإِنْ كُنْتُ بَارّاً لَا أَرْفَعُ رَأْسِي، لأَنِّي مُمْتَلِئٌ هَوَاناً وَنَاظِرٌ مَذَلَّتِي، ١٥ 15
If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
وَإِنْ شَمَخْتُ بِرَأْسِي تَقْتَنِصُنِي كَالأَسَدِ، ثُمَّ تَعُودُ فَتَصُولُ عَلَيَّ. ١٦ 16
And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
تُجَدِّدُ شُهُودَكَ ضِدِّي، وَتُضْرِمُ غَضَبَكَ عَلَيَّ، وَتُؤَلِّبُ جُيُوشاً تَتَنَاوَبُ ضِدِّي. ١٧ 17
You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
لِمَاذَا أَخْرَجْتَنِي مِنَ الرَّحِمِ؟ أَلَمْ يَكُنْ خَيْراً لَوْ أَسْلَمْتُ الرُّوحَ وَلَمْ تَرَنِي عَيْنٌ؟ ١٨ 18
“'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
فَأَكُونُ كَأَنِّي لَمْ أَكُنْ فَأُنْقَلُ مِنَ الرَّحِمِ إِلَى الْقَبْرِ. ١٩ 19
[I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
أَلَيْسَتْ أَيَّامِي قَلِيلَةً؟ كُفَّ عَنِّي لَعَلِّي أَتَمَتَّعُ بِبَعْضِ الْبَهْجَةِ، ٢٠ 20
[I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
قَبْلَ أَنْ أَمْضِيَ إِلَى حَيْثُ لَا أَعُودُ، إِلَى أَرْضِ الظُّلْمَةِ وَظِلِّ الْمَوْتِ، ٢١ 21
before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
إِلَى أَرْضِ الظُّلْمَةِ الْمُتَكَاثِفَةِ وَالْفَوْضَى، حَيْثُ الإِشْرَاقُ فِيهَا كَاللَّيْلِ الْبَهِيمِ». ٢٢ 22
a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”

< أيُّوب 10 >