< Job 10 >

1 “I am tired of living. And I will not be silent and stop saying what I am complaining about. Instead, being very unhappy, I will speak [IDM].
«قَدْ كَرِهَتْ نَفْسِي حَيَاتِي. أُسَيِّبُ شَكْوَايَ. أَتَكَلَّمُ فِي مَرَارَةِ نَفْسِي١
2 I will say to God, ‘Do not say that I must be punished; instead, tell me what wrong you are saying that I have done.
قَائِلًا لِلهِ: لَا تَسْتَذْنِبْنِي. فَهِّمْنِي لِمَاذَا تُخَاصِمُنِي!٢
3 Does it seem to be good for you to oppress me, to abandon me, whom you created, and instead, to help wicked people to do the things that they plan to do?
أَحَسَنٌ عِنْدَكَ أَنْ تَظْلِمَ، أَنْ تُرْذِلَ عَمَلَ يَدَيْكَ، وَتُشْرِقَ عَلَى مَشُورَةِ ٱلْأَشْرَارِ؟٣
4 Do you understand things the way that we humans do?
أَلَكَ عَيْنَا بَشَرٍ، أَمْ كَنَظَرِ ٱلْإِنْسَانِ تَنْظُرُ؟٤
5 (Do you live for only a few years, like we do?/You certainly do not live for only a few years, like we do.) [RHQ]
أَأَيَّامُكَ كَأَيَّامِ ٱلْإِنْسَانِ، أَمْ سِنُوكَ كَأَيَّامِ ٱلرَّجُلِ،٥
6 So, why do you [RHQ] continue to search for my faults? Why do you hunt for my sins?
حَتَّى تَبْحَثَ عَنْ إِثْمِي وَتُفَتِّشَ عَلَى خَطِيَّتِي؟٦
7 You know that I am not guilty, and that no one can rescue me from your power [MTY].
فِي عِلْمِكَ أَنِّي لَسْتُ مُذْنِبًا، وَلَا مُنْقِذَ مِنْ يَدِكَ.٧
8 “'With your hands you created me and shaped/formed my body; but now you are [deciding that you should not have done that, and you are] destroying me.
«يَدَاكَ كَوَّنَتَانِي وَصَنَعَتَانِي كُلِّي جَمِيعًا، أَفَتَبْتَلِعُنِي؟٨
9 Do not forget that you made me from [a piece of] clay; are you going to cause me to become dirt again [RHQ]?
اُذْكُرْ أَنَّكَ جَبَلْتَنِي كَٱلطِّينِ، أَفَتُعِيدُنِي إِلَى ٱلتُّرَابِ؟٩
10 You certainly [RHQ] directed/controlled it when I was conceived, and you formed me inside my mother’s womb [MET].
أَلَمْ تَصُبَّنِي كَٱللَّبَنِ، وَخَثَّرْتَنِي كَٱلْجُبْنِ؟١٠
11 You fastened my bones together with sinews, and [then] you covered them with flesh inside my skin.
كَسَوْتَنِي جِلْدًا وَلَحْمًا، فَنَسَجْتَنِي بِعِظَامٍ وَعَصَبٍ.١١
12 You have caused me to be alive, and you have faithfully loved me, and you have carefully (preserved me/kept me alive).
مَنَحْتَنِي حَيَاةً وَرَحْمَةً، وَحَفِظَتْ عِنَايَتُكَ رُوحِي.١٢
13 “'But you (kept secret/did not reveal) what [you were planning to do to me]; I am certain that you were planning [to do] these [things to me].
لَكِنَّكَ كَتَمْتَ هَذِهِ فِي قَلْبِكَ. عَلِمْتُ أَنَّ هَذَا عِنْدَكَ:١٣
14 You were watching to see if I would sin, in order that [if I sinned, ] you would refuse to forgive me.
إِنْ أَخْطَأْتُ تُلَاحِظُنِي وَلَا تُبْرِئُنِي مِنْ إِثْمِي.١٤
15 If I am a wicked man, I hope/wish that terrible things will happen to me. But even if I am righteous, I still must bow my head [and feel ashamed], because I am very disgraced and feel miserable.
إِنْ أَذْنَبْتُ فَوَيْلٌ لِي، وَإِنْ تَبَرَّرْتُ لَا أَرْفَعُ رَأْسِي. إِنِّي شَبْعَانُ هَوَانًا وَنَاظِرٌ مَذَلَّتِي.١٥
16 And if I am proud, you hunt me like [SIM] a lion hunts [for some animal to kill], and you act powerfully to injure me.
وَإِنِ ٱرْتَفَعْتُ تَصْطَادُنِي كَأَسَدٍ، ثُمَّ تَعُودُ وَتَتَجَبَّرُ عَلَيَّ.١٦
17 You constantly find more witnesses [to testify that I have done what is wrong], and you continually become more angry/perturbed with me. [It is as though] you are always bringing new troops to attack me.
تُجَدِّدُ شُهُودَكَ تُجَاهِي، وَتَزِيدُ غَضَبَكَ عَلَيَّ. نُوبٌ وَجَيْشٌ ضِدِّي.١٧
18 “'God, why did you allow me to be born? I wish/desire that I had died before anyone [SYN] saw me.
«فَلِمَاذَا أَخْرَجْتَنِي مِنَ ٱلرَّحِمِ؟ كُنْتُ قَدْ أَسْلَمْتُ ٱلرُّوحَ وَلَمْ تَرَنِي عَيْنٌ!١٨
19 [I consider that] it would have been better if I had been carried directly from my mother’s womb to the grave than for me to live.
فَكُنْتُ كَأَنِّي لَمْ أَكُنْ، فَأُقَادَ مِنَ ٱلرَّحِمِ إِلَى ٱلْقَبْرِ.١٩
20 [I think that] [RHQ] there are only a few days for me to remain alive; so (allow me to be alone/stop attacking me), in order that I may be a little cheerful
أَلَيْسَتْ أَيَّامِي قَلِيلَةً؟ ٱتْرُكْ! كُفَّ عَنِّي فَأَتَبَلَّجَ قَلِيلًا،٢٠
21 before I go to the place from which I will never return, where it is always gloomy and very dark [DOU],
قَبْلَ أَنْ أَذْهَبَ وَلَا أَعُودَ. إِلَى أَرْضِ ظُلْمَةٍ وَظِلِّ ٱلْمَوْتِ،٢١
22 a place of darkness and dark shadows, where [everything] is confused/disordered, where [even a small amount of] light there is like darkness (OR, there is no light, only darkness).’”
أَرْضِ ظَلَامٍ مِثْلِ دُجَى ظِلِّ ٱلْمَوْتِ وَبِلَا تَرْتِيبٍ، وَإِشْرَاقُهَا كَٱلدُّجَى».٢٢

< Job 10 >